Repeatedly annoying and sometimes confusing about me
is that my FEELINGS.
I always have the mixed feelings,
and I don't like that,
especially when it comes to the matter of future.
As much as I wouldn't want to take it seriously,
I just have to.
The pressure of being the first daughter,
the first granddaughter and the first cousin I would say.
And I don't like to share that with
people because they might think I am so annoying
as if like I'm the only one that has to face this problem.
So I better keep my mouth shut,
but then I tend to be so moody and it might inflict harms to others.
Then I tend to make people feel sad or angry of me.
I am sorry.
I really am.