Saturday, February 8, 2014

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Saturday, December 28, 2013


When you're hurtful.

When you're touched.

Because it won't cost you.

But it's okay to also

When you're hurtful.

When you're touched.

Because it won't cost you.

So you decide. 

To cry or smile.

But I choose to smile while I cry. 

Wednesday, December 11, 2013


And when you talk about my biggest fear as if you can see it coming and you don't do anything to stop it, really make me a sad person that will sound so pathetic. iCry. 

Tuesday, December 10, 2013


You know that fear when you're just too close to someone and then you realise that you're running out of time because in the next one and half year you'll leave your country and study in another country and that someone will too and you won't be as close as before because you're separated by continents and it's the matter of trust, who will stay and who will leave and then you realise that everything has been planned since the day you've fated to be in your mother's womb. You just have to pray and prepare for the worst. #notetoself 

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Friendly reminder

Allah knows best.

Referring to the previous post.

Somehow because all I did was studying,
made me forget the reason why was I studying.

If I were to study just to score for exams and meet sponsor's min requirement,
then those might be reasons behind my failure.

Because in everything we do,
remember to do it in the name of Allah.

Because He will make sure that all the efforts are paid off.
But He won't tell you when.

Maybe He will reward you something bigger, during the phase after life.


Never Good Enough

Have you ever felt like you can never be good enough?

I feel like all my efforts are not worthwhile.
No matter how hard I try, I hardly get what I want.

Especially now.
When all I do is studying but I hardly scire as high as others.
It's like the effort is not big enough to get that high marks.
Which it makes me feel like a loser.

I know I can never be a genius.
But for once, 
I really hope that all the efforts are paid off.

Sunday, October 20, 2013


 You won't know. Because the tag is pasted behind your back and the rule is, you can't check your back. And everyone is not allowed to speak.

Look at the mirror.
You might not believe it.

Then keep on searching for the clues.
The hints.
You won't find any.

Here's a piece of thought.

Keep your eyes open.

Monday, October 7, 2013

You don't get it?

The hints given are more than obvious 
But we pretend like we still don't know
Because we think we don't have to tell
To state the obvious.
But the problem arose when you don't clarify is
You don't know where is the line drawn
And you don't know what should you hold on to
The confused feelings.
I hate it.

And the worse part is
We act like we fall for different people
Just to make it sound fair and square.

Which we both know,
how hurtful it can be.

Oh wait.
Is that only a me?
I guess so.

Sunday, October 6, 2013

One step closer

And this is not a twilight love song.

You know when at times you have to make a wise decision and yet you are never sure how wise it could be?

When at times you have to step back and see the bigger picture of everything and still cannot see the obvious because you have the kind of perception that you can't resist?

When at times you think you haven't done enough for yourself and yet people keep demanding more from you and it leaves you with no option?

When at times you know that you have sacrificed your passion for your future yet your future needs your passion to begin with?

Life is full of choices.
But I have to choose the best for me.

But wait.

How should I know it's the best when I know it's the best when I found worse? 

Where tears are shed

Why should I grieve because of a thorn,
as once it had made laughter known to me.
Whenever you lost in the stroke of destiny,
Bare in mind it was to save you from adversity.

To help us, He makes us cry.
To happy the eyes that shed tears for His sake,
To fortunate the heart that burns for His sake.
Laughter always follows tears.
Blessing to those who understand.
Life blossoms wherever water flows.
Where tears are shed,
divine mercy is shown.


Tuesday, August 13, 2013


I haven't been blogging for quite some times. 
So hello :) 
New chapter of life starts when
you're moving to a new environment.
Alhamdulillah, a fresh beginning :) 

Saturday, August 3, 2013


Why do you give hope when there's no chance?
Why do you play with broken glass for the third time when you already had the better one?
Why do you care so much when someone don't?
Why does someone matter when you don't?
Why don't you appreciate when someone else does?
Why can't you respect when people do?
Why can't you forget what's in the past?
Why do you want to change the future by   removing the past and escaping the present?
Why do you confuse yourself when someone else could make it clear?
Why do you wait when you know you might regret?
Why does the story have no ending?
Why do some feelings last forever?
Why don't you care about your pride when someone could just be really ego?
Why do you still wait even after those two silent moments?


Saturday, June 22, 2013

That Girl In Your Class

That girl in your class,
She laughs,
She has a smile that lights up
an entire room.

That girl in your class,
She has great grades,
She doesn't even have to try.

That girl in your class,
She has seemingly amazing friends,
That care about her.

That girl in your class,
She has scars,
Lines marking her body,
And friends don't notice,
Some just don't care.

That girl in your class,
Doesn't remember what's
like to not cry,
She cries herself to sleep every night.

But hey, she smiles.
So, she's okay,


Tuesday, June 18, 2013

I will talk fashion.

Well I seriously don't know 
how to dress up in dress and wear high heels.

I am the jeans tshirt and sneakers kind of girl.

But Selena Gomez's style really
piques my interest most.

I also have certain preference on guy's style haha.
Well these styles just catch my attention,
I would say.

Some plain tshirts. And jeans would be great.

And guys with plain shirts too. I would prefect the light colours.

And this for work. Haha or any occasion.

I like the elegant looking guys I think. 

But a guy will look more attractive when he wears watch. 

Haha I don't make any sense here, do I? Lol.